So my husband and I are leaving the country tomorrow evening and my little bug will not be going with us. I have struggled with the decision to join my husband on this trip since I made it. For a moment yesterday, I sorta worked myself up into a mini panic attack. My mind wandered into a very scary place... what if something happens to him? ... what if he feels abandoned? ... what if something happens to us? ... what if ... what if ... what if ... As I'm sure you can imagine, I began to think about canceling. I wondered how upset my husband would be if I backed out and we lost all of our money. Thankfully, I began to pray and I felt like the Lord spoke to me: "Give me these eight days. I love you and delight in you. I want to show you my land and my people. Give me these eight days. I'll protect your son and his heart but I want to do something in yours. Give me these eight days." This of course calmed me for the moment but I know that this trip will be very difficult for me. Agree with me in prayer as I prepare to leave my little guy behind.
Father, thank you for loving me and for blessing me with a wonderful son. I pray that this separation will have NO negative effect on him. Father, I thank you for protecting him -- guarding him physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I pray Lord that he will not feel abandoned or confused but only loved, loved, loved. Thank you for my family who will certainly take great care of my little man in my absence. Bless them, Lord. Thank you for providing the opportunity for me to take this trip and spend time with You. Help me to set aside any worry, anxiety, fear or doubt; help me to put my complete trust in You and be open to what You want to do in me. Father, I give you these eight days because You've given me so much more! My cup runneth over. To You be honor, glory, and praise forevermore in Jesus' name. Amen!
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